I’m a perfectionist. A procrastinating, wait-until-I-have -all-my-ducks-in-a-row-before-I-act, perfectionist. With that being said, I wanted to wait until I had everything together before I started writing for this blog. You know, the perfect blog title, a dynamic magazine-esque layout, a specially tailored theme….blah ze blah blah BLAH.
Steven J. Seay, Ph.D
The only problem is, it was KILLING me. I had this CRAZY desire to write; it really was *in my Rance Allen voice* like fiyahhh shut up my bones!! But because I didn’t have all the details together, I kept putting it off. “When I have the time, I’ll do it,” I conveniently lied to myself. Problem is: I NEVER have the time. That is, I never MAKE time. My hope truly was being deferred, and it was simply because I was too afraid to make a move. I mean, I might FAIL. And who wants that?
Those who fail to plan, plan to fail.
However, today is the day I say goodbye to perfectionism. I’m not waiting another moment. I’m stepping out and doing what I most likely should have been doing a long time ago, and that is, writing.
Have you ever felt like you had a million things you wanted to say, but couldn’t express them all at once? Every day, everywhere I go, in every conversation, in every joyful moment, in every hurt I experience, in the exciting and even the mundane, I feel as if God deposits another drop into my cup. Ideas come faster than my mind has mind time to process them. Until now, I’ve been holding on to them, and now it feels as if I’m about to implode. I am overflowing, and it is time that I release.
This post simply is me beginning to tip the cup forward. To pour out what He’s placed into me so that He can continue to pour in. No, I’m not a motivational speaker. No, I’m not some guru. I can’t “fix your life” (no shade, I looove Iyanla 🙂 ). But this I CAN do: I can share my story. I can tell what I’ve been through, and a lot of what I’m GOING through. I can be transparent, and reveal my wounds, whether healed or still bleeding, in hopes that one will see and know that they too can overcome. And if they haven’t, they can know that there’s just as much glory in the journey as in the destination. This I WILL do.
And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony…
~Revelation, 12:11, KJV
So, with all this being said, I invite you to stay tuned. Take this journey with me. To where?? IDK!! All I know is that as I go, I want to be more free, healed, and made whole than when I began. And it is my hope that something I say will help you to be too. Will we be perfect? Nah. But who wants to be anyway? Misfits are more unique 😉
MORE COMING SOON
A Fellow Misfit